So quickly indeed, Jan 1 came and went, but the year is yet to be lived. I hope everyone had a good start to 2010! (I am featuring my pet Bobby on the left (image) as you can see, he is laughing at me while I am writing this long post).
On the political front, we have some good news and some bad ones. It’s good that the Herald gets to use the word ‘Allah’. Hello, people, is there anything else?
It’s bad, however, very bad (and there are a few!) but the most urgent ones are that we still do not know (1) what happened to our jet engines (what’s the excuse now Najib?) (2) was Teoh Beng Hock murdered or did he kill himself? I thought we’ve only had comedians and keris wielding/ala hang tuah politicians in Malaysia, but now it seems we have a great magician around – how could jet engines go missing!?
I still feel angry, sad, frustrated that other than jet engines, young children still go missing, are still disappeared and their perpetrators never found. This makes me want to scream at the police to do their jobs and go looking for these culprit, murderer, whatever, instead of “wondering” if Raja Petra Kamaruddin is staying in some upity apartment in London, Australia…where else, and who are his sponsors?
These remain X-files for now, as our politicians play politics and go absence from Parliament. Is this a year of more sandiwaras? Or a year of more by-elections or political coup? We await and see. Patience is DA key.
On the personal side, I would like to make a confession (not a resolution) – that I am sorry for blogging less in 2009 as the year, for me, was truly a year of personal struggles and challenges. Through it all I am grateful for my loved ones, friends who are always there for me, and people I met through my blog who were there when I needed a friend – all of you make life easier for me and less stressful, therefore I less suicidal. You, who know who you are, are the silver linings in my very dark gloomy cloud. Thanks!
Looking back, I wondered what went wrong in my stars in 2009. There were countless mishaps – healthwise or physically – from breaking my front tooth, to suffering wrist pain which rendered my right hand immobile for sometime, to being infected with eye ulcer that clouded my vision for awhile; and made me suffer lots of pain and discomfort. Workwise, I was (still am!) disappointed with the sheer indecisiveness of someone, the hypocrisy and disrespect for staff, though the very same people shout about human rights on international platforms. Sheesh!
My computer was attacked by virus too, which made me lose many of the important files I was working on. And if that was not enough, I also got robbed, and lost important documents, most of all my passport and my USBs, with lots of important work files.
At home, my mum was going through several health problems, which made me really worried. She’s 76 in 2010, and I feel I must be with her more often. Then there is my 11 year old niece, an ultra hyperactive 4’6” who’s under our care, and who has become a handful a.k.a “too hot to handle”! But most of all, I miss Bobby, my doggie. And wish to spend more quality time with him 🙂
So you can imagine, that many a times I was “prevented” from blogging. The times when I could not do blogging, though, I have been reading, and wow, did I read a lot of books (24!), and did some book reviews too. I totally enjoyed myself in this area.
I also painted a lot (not as much as I would like though) and I must have worked on more than 20 pieces of art, mostly in acrylics. I sold some, and am really grateful that people appreciated my art work. Two of them were featured on front cover of human rights publications. So I am quite happy about this as well.
I really don’t know what 2010 holds for me, or for every Malaysian. But like most Malaysians, I know what I
would do at the ballot box if we have a snap election! I am not in the habit of making resolutions, but I do want to go back to more blogging this year, and more reading, and more painting as well.
Oh, if only I could clone myself….sigh. Anyway, welcome back from the holidays people. Lets pray that truth and justice prevail, and that we have the stamina and the strength to hold on to our senses as our politicians continue to give us more theaterics, and of coure never ending bullsh*t!