365 days. And what have we?

More delays.

Irrelevant witnesess.

Total lack of evidence.

Increased boredom.

Increased suspicion.

More dilly-dallying.

More technical jargons.

The Altantuya trial has gone to waste.

But I know Altantuya will not give up.

I am not giving up either despite the countless accusations by top bloggers in the country that I am paid to do the Mongolian story. I dont know what you people get by spreading the word. I only know this: that perhaps you can’t imagine that someone can champion a cause for the sake of truth and justice and do not need to be paid a single cent. Some people also do it for fun, and some do it because they are trained to do these things. But if you think that people act only when they get paid, that is because you yourself get paid for writing your blogs probably.

But I don’t get paid for anything I write on this blog. I’ve neglected this blog, partly feeling disheartened at how vicious people can be, how true it is that some bloggers are indeed liars. But the other part is that when I left my job at the human rights organisation recently, I no longer have a lap-top. So, posts had been scarce and will be scarce.  I’m looking for a job now, especially in the writing, journalistic and editing field. So, if any of you good souls were to know of any vacancies or opportunities, do let me know. I’ll owe you lots!

And I thank all those who have been writing to me, concern about my well-being.  You make my heart melt. I’ll be replying your mails. Be patient. I might close this blog one day eventually, but it will never be for the reasons that you think. It may be just for the fact that I want a new lease of life. There is life after the blog, you know.


61 responses »

  1. sungame says:

    Good to see that you are still alive and kicking, Susan! I was starting to get a little bit worried…

    I will use this opportunity to thank you for the following:
    – not giving up despite a hostile climate towards bloggers, and all the bad feelings, lies and accusations between bloggers.
    – championing a cause for the sake of truth and justice.

    I also thank you in advance for not closing this blog without warning us, your readers. 😉

    If one day you decide to close it, it will be a sad day for us, but you must do whatever is right for you. As you say, there IS life after and outside the blog.

  2. wits0 says:

    Return of the Blogging Xena! Knew you’ll return….much ghosts need busting. 😀

  3. koolgeek says:

    Do not give up on things you believe and stand for. That makes you you.

  4. kean-jin lim says:

    It is good to hear from you again. How are you?

  5. selvaraja somiah says:

    Susan, I always enjoy reading all your stuff. Keep the fire burning! We are all the way with you, and hence, dont be so upset la.

  6. sofiairdina says:

    Had been feeling a bit guilty bcoz I dont even know who to ask when suddenly u disappered. I just prayed quietly that nothing bad happened.

    Life is as such susan… you are doing the right thing. Believe in youself. You are not alone. God will aways be with u.

  7. ricky says:

    Sometime its hard to absorb all the lies hurl at you, but with your strenght and sincererity you will make it through.

    As you know very well there are evils in this country trying to distrupt the unity of bloggers and painting bad pictures about them.

    These evils are calling bloggers liars and monkeys.

    Just do what you have to do and don’t bother about those evils. They will face the real punishment one day by the God they so truly believe in.

    Sorry to hear that you are jobless now. Since you have knowledge about the internet, maybe you may want to go the online business way. No capital, just hosting, domain and your computer.

    Good luck and May God Bless You and Look after your well being.

  8. Silhoute says:

    Dear Susan,
    After several failures in trying to access your blog, I thought you were limiting the acess to only a selected few. Now I am glad I tried again and I found out that its back to normal.
    I am stumped at the accusation made at you. Aint we all feel concerned at what happened to the late Altantuya? What happened to her could happen to somebody else after this. There is nothing to stop these animals from doing it again with the kind of protection from the very people we trusted as the keepers of the law and order. Lets keep the fire for seeking the truth going and we will rally with you.
    I am sorry to hear that you are jobless. How about finding yourself a teaching job just to tide things over?
    I would like to wish you the best of luck and I hope things will get better for you.

  9. gua bay song says:

    Wah! You are back!

  10. observer says:

    Your former boss Malaysiakini is looking for reporters. But the the grass is greener overseas

  11. lucia says:

    susan, so glad that you decided to blog again.

    ignore all those people who made accusations at you. as long as you know you are doing the right thing, don’t mind them. do keep us updated with news and info of altantuya, ya hear!… because you are passionate over the case and wants justice for altantuya… i truly believe that, not that you are paid do it. those people who accused you of that are probably jealous how you can get hold and manage to blog so much on altantuya’s case.

  12. wits0 says:

    And I’m assuredly not getting paid for supporting your blog either, Susan. :O

    Some people will always project their own intent and agenda on to you. This has to be expected but ignored.

  13. bamboo river says:

    Susan, it is not important if people don’t believe you. It’s more important you believe what you have to do.

  14. monsterball says:

    Susan….contact me. We can work something out together.
    F…..those bloody liars. Have we not gone through all these before with Sheih together? I think they wanted to do me up….and here I am..still besides you.
    Contact me…please.

  15. monsterball says:

    okay..SUSAN…I have send you an email.
    Keep smiling!!

  16. monsterball says:

    And SUSAN..treat blogging as fun..and if you don’t have the fun..close it up!!
    Truly there is life after blogging!!
    Don’t let blogging upset your life.
    Look forward for a reply …to my email.

  17. tiputipu says:

    A door closed is another open,keep tryin.Good luck.

  18. Tim says:

    Good to see a post from you I was wondering if you were on a break. But really, you shouldn’t give a damn what others say. Wish you all the best.

  19. Valdes-Munoz says:

    “The world is a dangerous place. Not because of the people who are evil; but because of the people who don’t do any thing about it.” –Albert Einstein-
    One of the modus operandi of all arm suppliers and dealers in the world arms market is to give “commission” or “corruption” indirectly to the decision makers.

    Payment of corruption money are done very professionally so that it does not incriminate the arms supplier, These arm suppliers will pay any amount of commission demanded as long as they are not implicated as some of them are PLC.

    In this case, it will not be uncommon for, Altantuya Shaariibuu to be a nominee conduit for receiving the large amount of commission for arms deals. Her name could be used as a nominee but the funds (money laundered in Singapore and Hong Kong) received actually goes to the sexist(MISAGYNIST/WOMAN HATER) Abdul Razak Baginda/NAJIB TUN RAZAK the UMNO(NATZIS/RACISTS) pukita cronies who share in the loot. Mongolian nominees are preferred by Russian suppliers as most Mongolians speak Russian.

    This Altantuya Shaariibuu relationship with Abdul Razak Baginda was obviously more than “lover” and it is crystal clear she know more than she should.

    So, her explosives disintegration with C4 type episode with directives from the top. NAJIB TUN RAZAK, Rosmah, Khairy & Scomi who are involved in arms deals are clearly involved.

    Who are the UMNO (XENOPHOBIC/ANTI-SEMITIC) minister who
    are going to France, Spain, Italy, Russia & South Africa to buy arms recently?

    Who are the other UMNO (MASTERS of DEATH) pukitra ministers beside Najib Tun Razak, who have visited Ulaan Baatar in the last three years??? The long and endless list of Malaysia’s international laws and human-rights violations can no longer be ignored!!!
    This is a international security crisis that will be lethal to human rights world peace and safety.
    The International community must demand a multi-national investigation on to the ASSASSINATION of Translator/Interpreter & Business women Altantuya Shaariibuu along with the Malaysia’s illegal arms trade! Mongolia must break all diplomatic relations with Malaysia and state this case to the INTERNATIONAL COURT of JUSTICE alert and demand the United Nations Security Council to take action and that The United States’ State Deportment to also take action for this is a Human’s rights violation and a security issue that affects the United States directly. Malaysians must demand answers to what these anti-Democratic UMNO


    Who authorizes those people to use airplane as missiles? Who authorizes those people to use military explosives to kill an innocent woman?
    “All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is for good people to do nothing.” –Edmund Burke-

  20. Valdes-Munoz says:


    Our G-d, G-d of our mothers and fathers the Eternal and Internal G-d,grant that our prayers may reach You. Do not be deaf to our pleas, for we are not so arrogant and stiff-necked as to say before you, L-rd our G-d and G-d of all ages, we are perfect and have not sinned; rather do we confess: we have gone astray, we have sinned, we have transgressed.Who among us is righteous enough to say: ‘I have not sinned?’ We are arrogant, brutal, careless,destructive, egocentric, false; greedy, heartless, insolent, foolish, ignorant, and joyless. Our sins are an alphabet of woe.The weak can never forgive, forgiveness is the attribute of the stronge. Love is not blind, it sees but it does not mind. The Eternal and Internal G-d teach us to be friendly and forgive quickly, believe slowly and love truly. Looking around, what can we see what can we know, what can we learn, what can we do and what can we have,teach us to try not to become a people of success but a people of values ,virtues and principles. Only when we ourselves make it our personal commitment to take an active role in combatting evil in the world will it be possible for G-d to “remove our wrongs.” Then, in the very marrow of our being, our transgressions will evaporate like a mist, our sins dissolve like a cloud.
    We sin against You when we sin against ourselves. For our failures of truth, O L-rd we ask forgiveness. For passing judgment without knowledge of the facts, and for distorting facts to fit our theories. For deceiving ourselves and others with half-truth, and for pretending to emotions we do not feel . For using the sins of others to excuse our own, and for denying responsibility for our own misfortunes. For condemning in our children the faults we tolerate in ourselves, and for condemning in our parents the faults we tolerate in ourselves. We sin against You when we sin against ourselves. For our failures of justice, O L-rd, we ask forgiveness. For keeping the poor in the chains of poverty, and turning a deaf ear to the cry of the oppressed. For using violence to maintain our power, and for using violence to bring about change. For waging aggressive war, and for the sin of appeasing aggressors. For obeying criminal orders, and for the sin of silence and indifference. For poisoning the air, and polluting land and sea, and for all the evil means we employ to accomplish ends. We sin against You when we sin against ourselves. For our failures of love, O L-rd, we ask forgiveness. For confusing love with lust, and for pursuing passing pleasure at the cost of lasting hurt. For using others as a means to gratify our desires, and as stepping-stones to further our ambitions. For withholding love to control those we claim to love, and shunting aside those whose youth or age disturbs us. For hiding from others behind an armor of mistrust, and for the cynicism which leads us to mistrust the reality of unselfish love. The sin we have committed against You by malicious gossip, the sin we have committed against You by sexual immorality, and the sin we have committed against You by gluttony. The sin we have committed against You by narrow-mindedness, the sin we have committed against You by fraud and falsehood, and the sin we have committed against You by hating without cause. The sin we have committed against You by our arrogance. The sin we have committed against You by our insolence, and the sin we have committed against You by our irreverence. The sin we have committed against You by our hypocrisy, the sin we have committed against You by passing judgment on others, and the sin we have committed against You by exploiting the weak. The sin we have committed against You by giving and taking bribes, the sin we have committed against You by giving way to our hostile impulses, and the sin we have committed against You by running to do evil. Only when we ourselves make it our private vow to seize an active role in fightting evil in this world will it be viable for G-d to “purge our wrongs.” Then, in the exact core of our existence, our misdeeds will vanish like a haze, our sins fade like a blur.

  21. monsterball says:

    Wow….what a prayer!! How lucky can Susan be!!
    hi guys…she need no prayers. She needs help to get a JOB!!

  22. monsterball says:

    I repeat…if cannot help….prayers also good.
    I am prepare to donate RM500.
    Hope this will jump start more donations..and Susan need not feel embarrass to accept monetary help from all of us. I think she needs at least RM5000 per month…and hope we can get RM15,000 for her to get by for three months.
    Now she needs to give us a bank account to deposit the money to her.
    If it is against the law….easy…start auctioning..use your imagination…anything and we will raise the money for her LEGALLY. You think only dirty politicians know how to cheat the law???…hahahahahaha

  23. monsterball says:

    I do have quite alot of wrist and pocket watches..mostly antiques and limited editions. Also few rare and surprising items.
    I am willing to auction and raise up to RM15,000 and fly over to hand the money to Susan in Bangkok…or she comes and get it. Cost of flying to Bangkok is my own account..not from the auction money.
    Biggest problem is…I don’t know how to put out the photo on auctioning…but if guys get excited…..I will get help from bloggers to do it for me.
    No response…good luck to Susan’s blogging future.

  24. Black says:

    Welcome Back….

  25. KTemoc says:

    Lucia informed me you’re back 😉 good on you, Susan

  26. sloone says:

    HI everyone! Thanks for all the kind words. Great to be back. Did not mean to be melodramatic when I left.

    Monterball, thanks for your efforts. But not to worry. I’ll find a job soon and things will be fine.

    Hey keep your antiques. It might come in handy for you someday 🙂

  27. monsterball says:

    Great to hear from you Susan!
    Anytime you need a true faithful friend…..call me….and I will try my best.

  28. Valdes-Munoz says:

    We all can use some prayers with some very well needed action. prayers with out action is nothing if i had a job to give to Susan I will give her one in a heart beep but I can not give what I do not have. The prayer is a prayer for Altantuya , Susan , my self and all of humanity…FAILURES OF TRUTH-FAILURES OF JUSTICE-FAILURES OF LOVE-FAILURES OF THINKING-FAILURES OF INTEGRITY-FAILURES OF HONOR . Only when we ourselves make it our private vow to seize an active role in fightting evil in this world will it be viable for G-d to “purge our wrongs.” Then, in the exact core of our existence, our misdeeds will vanish like a haze, our sins fade like a blur. . Looking around, what can we see what can we know, what can we learn, what can we do and what can we have,teach us to try not to become a people of success but a people of values ,virtues and principles. Only when we ourselves make it our personal commitment to take an active role in combatting evil in the world will it be possible for G-d to “remove our wrongs.” Then, in the very marrow of our being, our transgressions will evaporate like a mist, our sins dissolve like a cloud.

  29. monsterball says:

    What alot of bull from Valdes Munoz.

  30. monsterball says:

    I have said enough of this man.
    He is out smearing and instigating our country….an out-sider from Mongolia.
    Good riddance to bad rubbish from Mongolia.
    Don’t come to our country and do con jobs again.

  31. Harrison Bin Hansome says:

    If all of the people/bloggers agreed with you, then it must be stranger than fiction.

    Even the philantropic Pope John Paul 2 was shot and JFK, Marthin Luther King were assasinated.

    I could hardly accept the facts as alleged that Susan has been paid to run the lime-light hogging updates of the Altantuya’s trial and the possible conspiracies behind it.

    Critics are good, without them one may be like Saddam hussein who explicitly claimed that all Iraqis voted for him when he was declared a winner in elections with 100% win.

    But at the time of the American military incursions, and to the time he went to hiding, it was seen on CNN that his (Saddam’s) statue’s, every honourable insignia were mocked, and dismantled by the Iraqis.

    Maybe those castigators of Saddams honour’s, the Iraqi citizens themselves LOST THEIR WAY to the polling booth/station.

    Critics are good, and you just have to negate them.

    Well, in regards to your recent unemployment, don’t worry, marry Monsterball…He’s old, and you will be living his wealth soon. Remeber Michelle Yeoh with the Ferrari boss? Or you could live on his alimony but one thing you are cautioned by a dear friend, never does anything with ARSENIC or premeditated murder, coz he watched too much of the CSI stuffs.

    Wellcume home babe, I may want to beleive that Steven Gan wanted you back.

  32. monsterball says:

    hahahahahaha….Harrison bin Hasome…you are naughty and witty. I do care alot sincerely for Susan…but what do you think…I am easy meat …like late Nicol Smith to tempt me with big boobs?….hahahahaha

  33. monsterball says:

    Susan should not think of all the conveniences or advantages she should have…then I think jobs are there for her to choose. Too choosy…she may end up no jobs or choose wrong one.
    Why stick to reporting only? Why not try other fields?
    She is so smart and hard working wit a responsible attitude…she can succeed doing other things..like in professional selling.

  34. monsterball says:

    hi Harrison….I am not cash rich lah.
    Don’t paint a false picture of me….okay?
    I maybe generous and can afford to help others a little more than others and I noticed at Sheih’s blog…two guys willing to give up their bonuses to help the poor and helpless. That’s the richness I belong. I just cut down my cigar smokings for one month….then all okay again.
    Please don’t compare me with Ferrari boss…it’s illogical.

  35. Pimp says:

    “I’m looking for a job now, especially in the writing, journalistic and editing field. So, if any of you good souls were to know of any vacancies or opportunities, do let me know. I’ll owe you lots!”

    I have a whorehouse on Jalan Alor. We can start you off at $5.00 for a ‘quickie’ unless you have some special skills that we do not know of??

  36. wits0 says:

    Hmm…Pimp, sticks and stones may break Susan’s bones but your words of schadenfreude merely your lineage of the cesspool. 😀

  37. wits0 says:

    “..merely SHOWS your lineage..”

  38. monsterball says:

    Pimp is such a low class pimp to insult susan that way.
    Perhaps he could double it up by getting his wife..or his virgin 15 year old daughter….if he has one to fill up his whorehouse with customers…to pay different prices.
    Pimp should reveal his full name and face…so that prostitutes and fellow pimps can contact him for joint ventures.
    Being a pimp is a man’s lowest grade of so call working life…blood sucking women for doing nothing. He thinks he is such a smart guy talking like that and with that nick.
    How will his family and friends think of his sick sick mind.

  39. monsterball says:

    Pimp collect RM50 for a quickie and keep RM45 for himself….that’s what he is saying.
    He is a real pimp….and is very proud of his trade.
    I guess…his present wife was a prostitute too…and they usually do marry a girl…make he a prostitute and divorce after few years..then marry another young girl again.
    Police stations have tons of records how they operate.
    They usually come out very late at night and hide like rats on normal time.
    They are well educated and drive expensive cars….and have some sort of police connections too….but of late..things change for the better and perhaps this idiotic pimp’s whorehouse is empty.
    I also understand in Jalan Alor..alot look for men too….and I suggest he start offering his rear for RM5 to keep himself busy.
    This kind of men will be reborn as a low class rat….take my word for it.

  40. wits0 says:

    Charles Darwin claimed we came from the Ocean slime. We have a good idea where the Pimp came from. Fret not. 😀

  41. sofiairdina says:

    Come on guys… I dont think pimp’s comment is worth responding.

  42. wits0 says:

    No Sofia, only when it pleases one. At other times can always easily ignore.

  43. monsterball says:

    Sofia….I admire you ignoring anyone insulting you to the level to call you a prostitute at open place…anywhere.
    That if you can…you are wonderful human being….but for one come visiting your house and say it in your house….right infront of your many visitors……that’s a different story..

  44. hantutelur says:

    Oooo susan, how i miss you! Now i have to break my vow not to post comment here just to let you know that i had been thinking crazy things when your blog suddenly got locked. And monty please don’t take this opportunity to hantam me. peace!

  45. monsterball says:

    I actually have no problems with you hantutelur.
    Just don’t irritate me and want to be a hero to get me all worked up.
    Welcome back and don’t support those that merely put out to insult me…not a comment at all….few do that…and you go at check out their brains….ZERO!!
    Try to put out ideas..for or against never mind….like a debate. You did that before..don’t change…hantutelur….PEACE too.

  46. hantutelur says:

    i love u, monty

  47. monsterball says:

    hantu is monster
    telur is round like a ball
    So you are destined to love me.

  48. tiputipu says:

    5rm to come quickie y the hassle using ur 5 finger is free n say a prayer for mankind[hood]It doesnt hurt anyone,u should save urself 5 buck

  49. Super Star In Bed says:

    Susan, how long since………..?

  50. monsterball says:

    Since what?…..Super Star In Bed.
    Do you speak to your friends like that ..and let the whole world read ….also like that?
    Come on ….since what…finish it.

  51. monsterball says:

    Since when anyone cares…except low down scums like you….come visiting Susan’s blog and talk cock to her.
    For a man to hide under internet and talk like that…you and pimp must be real proud.
    I wonder how your father mount your mom to produce a scum like you. It must have something to do with your parents…cannot be alone…you carry their genes.
    Why not ask your own wife or girlfriend when and by whom was she mounted when you are not around. Since you can talk like that…I don’t think you can satisfy your her at all….and she knows you are a rat too.

  52. monsterball says:

    When one claim he is a super star in bed…he is saying he performs Tiger shows….am I right SSIB?
    Very proud of your profession?
    One day..a pimp….next day a sex performer?
    Yes both are rats….and must have no jobs now…taking Susan as his target for his sick sick brain..which have sperms attacking it….as his prick cannot work anymore.
    So try to laugh off the pains and agony at the expense of Susan….OR…is here talking like this….jealous of Susan’s popularity as the first millionaire female blogger in Malaysia.
    Nothing surprises me…when talking about Malaysians behaviors….especially jealousies from fellow bloggers.

  53. hantutelur says:

    uh-oh… here we go again!

  54. monsterball says:

    No hantutelur…here we go again PROTECTING our Susan’s blog.
    Will you join me?

  55. Super Star In Bed says:

    Well, I mean, to my learned commenter-monty:-

    U can clearly see the difference when my nick is in RED and POPS OUT to some linkeage, that it highly it’s not the same person. U even claimed once it wasn’t you when an impersonator masquarading ur nick.

    Having viewed the commenteries I wprobably liked or narrow down that my clone in RED is probably “Hantutelur” though not empirical.

  56. monsterball says:

    hahahahahahaha……ghost goes hunting for a super stud.. to go to bed with ….and now pimp got a full house show.

  57. monsterball says:

    And if they want to make me groggy…they have succeeded….hahaahahaha
    Going to bed….get energized…get ying and yang balanced …then come back.

  58. hantutelur says:


  59. avvit says:


  60. ghenjis khan says:

    I can remember one Ludovic Kennedy writing about criminal history in British Cases …. [ he is Sir Kennedy ]

    there is also a few other courageous writers who plodded along to write about injustices in the British Criminal Trials …..

    eg. In the Name of …. Birmingham bombers case

    and this Altantuy acase, even before the trial began, it smacks of conspiracy and shadowy figures lurking in the background …..

    some journalist must write about it ….. Nurin case, Norita case, woman murdered which is associated with <> , young man killed in sri hartamas, indian woman killed in sentul ????

    anyway, keep it up Susan Loone,

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